Remember how on Tuesday I was feeling great even though I didn’t have a reasonable explanation for feeling great? Yeah, that’s over with. My lower back, hips, and legs are completely out of control. Pain is radiating down my legs, through my abdomen – I feel like I’m sitting on wooden blocks! Standing doesn’t help. I just discovered walking only helps if I’m moving (carefully – no sudden corners), but I can’t stop or it’s worse. I am officially in the column of financial burden to my employer. I stayed home yesterday after not sleeping Wednesday night, and today I think I’m as useless as bellybutton jelly. I seriously have checked to see if I’m sitting on something clunky because my hips hurt so much.
BUT this too shall pass. AND I live in a safe, peaceful place. There are more blessings than curses in this world – they’re just sometimes harder to see. Hypervigilance be gone! I have no need of you – you’re just distracting.